Gagoo Jammies Launch Party

Gagoo Jammies Launch Party will be on April 28, 2012 at a private residence in Malibu.

For more information and new website go to You can donate directly to the Gagoo Event on the Baby Gagoo website. Any dollar amount is appreciated! *All proceeds go to Nkosis’ Haven & Sojourn services.

There are a few tickets left, at $300 a piece. Such a worthy cause and all proceeds go to Sojourn and Nkosis’ Haven. If you need more information, please email Kathy::::

If you would like to have your name go on the waiting list for jammies, please email Vanessa at:

Also, if you wish to make a donation to Nkosis’ Haven you should go here to do so: or to donate items: You can also follow them on Twitter: @NkosisHaven

Vanessa also supports Sojourn Services; a safe place for battered women and their children:

Their website is:

 Thank you again for supporting Vanessa’s favorite charities.

TTFN xoxo~Ro

Sudsy Soaps

Soap Operas….

Soaps have always been a big part of my life. While growing up I was enthralled in the glamour, adventure, love and backstabbers galore. Luke and Laura, Frisco and Felicia, Lucy and Doc, Erica Kane and any of her husbands, Angie and Jessie, Nina and Cliff, Trisha and Trucker (Loving), Ryan and Rick (Ryan’s Hope), Jake and Megan and on and on… I was captured by the complete essence of each show and their fantastic couples. Some couples and characters were created to just be them against the whole world, while others schemed to blow their worlds to smithereens.

I, at one time, I think it was junior and senior years of high school, wrote my own soap opera. It took up 6 or 7 notebooks, I wrote everything long hand. It was called “Beach Town” and it was such fun to create my characters, especially from a 17 year old’s point of view. It was about high school kids, kind of like 90210 but before 90210 ever aired. I wish I had those notebooks now! My dad had renovated our house and somehow all my wonderful stories wound up in a dumpster in the driveway and now is probably dust at the bottom of a landfill somewhere. It’s too bad… I’d love to read what I had written so long ago, when I was still somewhat innocent and not jaded by what has happened to the genre. I wish while I had my head buried in those notebooks, someone, a teacher or parent, anyone, would have pointed me in the direction of writing. It’s a shame they didn’t. I would have loved to have followed my passion for writing long ago, instead of trying to make time that I just don’t have to squeeze out a few words here and there. But, alas, everything happens for a reason and it’s all ok. Opportunities happen at every turn, it’s all about what you make of your journey and where you ultimately want to go. We’ll see where my path takes me, but I do know where ever that may be, it will be a fantastic adventure!

Life sometimes is like a soap opera. Things happen, road changes course, families begin and families end. But, there’s always opportunity for a brand new day, a brand new beginning. That is the beauty of life, even when things are bleak, not going your way, remember this; you are the writer of your very own life. You choose the amazing experiences and the path to take. Everything is a choice, even when it goes sour, you chose how it the story would twist and turn. It is also within your power to change the course at any time.

Now, I bet you’re wondering what my rambling has to do with Sonny and Brenda… Well, actually, it doesn’t, well maybe a little in a round-about way.  It’s more about GH.

The writers, our new headwriter, whom I love, I feel is doing an amazing job with what he has inherited. The show has been screwed up and awful for quite some time. It will take some time for them to get it back on track, soapy, crazy and wonderful again. There are things I absolutely LOVE and things I’m not crazy about but that’s ok. The good for me outweighs the bad right now.

Am I thrilled with every aspect about Robin’s demise? No, BUT, I am so, so thankful that the door is left open to Kimberly if she chooses to return, even for a day. That is a gift! If the other writer, GW, had his way and could complete the tale, Robin would have died of AIDS. Thank goodness she didn’t succumb to that deadly disease! I just like that Jason, Finola, John and soon, Tristan and Emma will have such amazing, meaty material to work with. Finally!

I’ll say it, I want Brenda back. I’d like her to be mentioned and called about Robin’s death. I’d like her to come home for the funeral. Personally, I’d like her to shove Kate off the dock into the water, followed by Carly. But, right now, I’ll take what I can and pray the writers choose a creative, interesting path that keeps us tuning in each day. I am excited to be excited about this show again. It’s my only one. I support the cast, crew and the writers. I think they can make this show into the crazy, wonderful, goodness I remember so fondly. I hope somehow, GH can slide into the 2pm EST time slot and really have a go at getting the ratings and TPTB see our loyalty and devotion.

I want my Sonny and Brenda together. I want AMAZING things written for the couple I fell in love with and have loved for 18 years and counting now! I want my friends online and off to be excited for GH and to see their beloved S&B again. I dislike being stabbed in the back by the writing and false leads. I want the real deal. I hope RC can deliver and make the show come to life and bounce into our hearts and minds again in a positive way.

Positivity is such a huge part of what makes me, me. I am a hopeful, positive, trusting person. My trust has been broken in many ways, but that positive person inside me always looks to re-trust and fix things. I hope our show gets better. I hope that some young girl in high school, who loves to write is recognized and pushed in the right direction for her… and that her soul gets fed with the passion she feels when she writes a kick-ass story!

I will always seek the good, faithful, hopeful and loyalty in people, no matter what. Growing up with all my stories and characters taught me a lot. Taught me about being creative, smart, loyal, happy and passionate. For me, it always comes back to how the stories are told and how the characters exude their electricity from the studio sets and into our homes. Those things create a powerful tale, but if one of those things are missing, the story is boring, falls flat and people tune out. No matter how powerful & amazing the cast happens to be, the story behind them needs to be equally amazing, smart and passionate.

I miss All My Children and One Life to Live tremendously. They were my companions through my days, even if they were just on and I just listened while I did work. I miss the voices and the familiar tales that were once told. The history was amazing and rich… To bad it wasn’t ever valued by TPTB. It should have been.

Our lives are woven around as a soap opera is written. Maybe not as over the top as some of them are but I bet if each one of you examined your lives, you could pick out at least ONE soap opera moment. Everyone has them… I, for one, have several gorgeous and not so gorgeous moments in my history that would be soap worthy. Some hilarious, some passionate, some sad & heartbreaking and some just CRAZY!! But, it’s all good! It’s life and it is wonderful.

Have a sublime Sunday, full of everything fun and soapy…

TTFN xoxo~Ro 🙂 ❤

Happy Anniversary!

One year ago, we were on Cloud nine! The planets were aligned, the birds were chirping, S&Bers/SFFers/BFFers were all bound together out of happiness, people were hugging and there was so much HOPE for the future.

I wish our story “ended” on a better note, I wish the writers were more creative in the departure of Brenda. Sonny should have been written, not the way he was in their last few months together & then how he has been written since, but in a way that would have continued their tale and possibly even made SKate’s tale more believable and understandable.

Sonny for some reason always needs to be written into a corner or torn down into a shell of himself only to be built up and ripped apart again. It’s not fair to watch the destruction of a beloved character nor is it fair to have something that goes against your grain as a fan, shoved down your throat.

I know Brenda has been “dead” already. My thought for a better tale to be told would have been for a happy, healthy marriage between S&B, the stupid, idiotic Balkan nonsense behind them and for there to be a two car accident involving Brenda…. With maybe Franco making off with Brenda’s broken, but alive body, into the night. The car explodes, as does the second one– which Franco was driving. There are no bodies to be found. Just Brenda’s bag with her id, money, pictures and credit cards. The rings left on the seat, only to be charred and scorched as if her body was and now just ashes.

Now, Sonny is left believing that Brenda is dead, the other unknown driver is dead. Now, he has Alec to think about and care for. He has to put his deep, intense pain aside to care for this little boy he wasn’t eager to find but now loves with all his heart because he is the only connection to his sweet Brenda he has left.

Sonny’s journey would have been a long road of picking up the pieces and would have brought Carly and Kate into his sphere in trying to help him through his sad ordeal. He could have worked through his feelings of pain, sadness and abandonment with them and Olivia. All the while bonding with Robin, Alec and Jason and Sam. A relationship could have developed between Kate and Sonny if the writers really wanted to go there. Would S&Bers have accepted it or liked it? Maybe, maybe not. It’s a really hard call. BUT, it would have been an understandable transition.

As Sonny starts to feel himself and becomes comfortable in his new skin as daddy, he would have growth, understanding and support from those around him. He would be loved and accepted. He would give Alec love and receive love back from that little boy. They would become a team in a way. Both would always love and miss Brenda but would have to find it in their hearts to move on.

Eventually, Brenda would heal, regain her feisty, determined side and escape Franco’s devious clutches. But, she wouldn’t escape until after he did a photo shoot with her.  Does she know about this shoot or does she not? There would be mysterious pictures of hands, feet and lips sent to Jason, along with a dvd of a tragic car accident but containing screams. Which would be a clue someone survived an accident… Jason and Sam could start connecting the clues and then approach Sonny who is in disbelief and dismisses them.

Sonny and Kate get engaged but Sonny has a nagging feeling in his heart that this is not right, but he continues anyway. Memories continue to flood back in his memory and he holds on tighter to Alec, believing he is the key to those precious moments.

Kate throws them a magnificent, splashy but elegant engagement party in the park. Full of flowers, candles, people and clouded happiness. Sonny, Kate and Alec enjoy the day as family, all the while being watched by someone from afar, someone who is unhappy about the happy scene they are witnessing. Just as Sonny goes to make a toast to his soon-to-be-bride, but something catches in his throat and instead, he speaks about his loss of the love of his life and how it broke him down but because of his little boy and the friends who stood by him and helped him through, he had the faith he would be happy again.

It’s Brenda lurking in the bushes. Her heart swells with emotion, knowing Sonny still loved her with all his heart and knows that if he knew what really happened, things would be different. With that knowledge, she comes out of the bushes and into the crowd.

Sonny sees a dark-haired woman come from the bushes, but he couldn’t see her face. His heartbeat quickens, his palms go sweaty. He tells himself there’s no way, it’s not his Brenda, she’s dead. Mac said there was no possible way she could have survived. He carried her rings with him daily. He stuck his sweaty hand into his pocket and felt the rings, which were hot from the heat of his body. He scanned the crowd until he saw her again, as she came out of the shadows, their eyes finally met, then she came into the light, Alec finally saw her and shrieked with joy!

“MOMMY!” He ran to her and Sonny dropped the microphone to the ground in an almost slow motion moment. Kate’s jaw almost fell off her face. She started to murmur “no” very softly as her hand came up to her mouth. Sonny just stared. Very much like the expressions they had from “Amazing Grace.” Brenda had pure joy on her face as she held her son and looked to Sonny. He started to approach her, with a wide, relieved smile on his face and love in his heart, when suddenly a shot rings out and Franco says “I’m back and ready to reclaim what’s mine!”

What is Franco’s? Why did he want Brenda when he looked at her ad in the magazine on the airplane all that time ago? What did he think he’d gain from kidnapping her and making it look like she was dead? Did he create some “art” with our girl? How do you think Sonny and Brenda will fare after this wild day in the park? Did Kate get shot? Or was it Sonny, Brenda or Alec? Maybe Jason? Or Robin, since we know she is leaving the show?

There were so many options that could have been used other than what was chosen.

I just know this:

As long as Sonny and Brenda have life in them, breathing on this earth, they will be connected through their hearts, their souls and their passion for each other. We had a GLORIOUS wedding other fanbases only dream about. We were lucky and blessed, even if for one day. We will celebrate that day and  hope Brenda comes back from where ever she is. I hope they reconnect and create more memories for themselves and for us. But until then, we will all weave our fantasy stories and share them with each other. We will celebrate their love and our love for them.

Happy Anniversary to the most beautiful soapy couple, EVER. May they have strawberries and cream, champagne, linguine w/clam sauce and make love everywhere at their CITA or in Positano, whichever YOU prefer.

Happy Day, S&Bers, chins up, hope and love in your hearts!

TTFN xoxo~Ro

S&B: The Trust Issue


A lot of water has flowed underneath that Sonny and Brenda bridge. Both have hurt the other and have done so numerous times. Both have been left in the rain, figuratively and literally. They have both come back together more than once because of their deep love and friendship. 

How can they find their way together this time if Brenda comes home?

I have mulled this over and over. How can the writers repair the damage that was done in July? Brenda left on a plane with Alec and Jax. Jax has been back about 3 times. Obviously they are not together. Jax is loyal and wouldn’t leave Brenda if they were together. If they were together, they would have sued Carly for custody of Jossyln. Thank goodness they are not. We also know that Diane saw Brenda, dressed beautifully, in bright colors and was positively glowing, which means Brenda was happy & feeling good about something.

My dream reunion:

S&B see each other on the docks, baby in Brenda’s arms, Alec holding her hand and Sonny just can’t believe his eyes. Kate falls off the dock when Sonny pushes her out-of-the-way as to get a better look at his beloved, Brenda. Then all the hurt of the past year melts away between them and they come together for a family group hug and a sweet, hot, longing  kiss. Oh, and by the way, this happens on their anniversary where they decide to renew their vows on the spot. Kate perishes in the cold, icy water. Coleman fishes her out, mourns then uses her as a huge ice-cube in his beer cooler. S&B go home, restart their lives and plan to move to Positano.  Ok, so I’m grasping. A girl can hope, can’t she? heheh 

Ok, reality…. I just hope that when they do come together, it is done with thought, respect and love. They deserve a great conversation. They deserve some intimacy and they deserve some time to rediscover each other. It needs to be very thoughtful. Get everything out on the table, deal with hurt feelings & honesty, move past it and make up. I also hope that when they DO make up, we have a fantastically gorgeous, passionate and amazing love scene… 90’s style. I’d like a kiss that rivals the Alley Kiss and a love scene that shows everyone what chemistry really is. I also hope that Sonny accepts Alec and maybe there’s a S&Bbaby. But, I’m ok with no baby. I really just want S&B together at this point.

I’m not sure how so many hurts can be healed between S&B right away, though. Both were so hurt when Brenda went away. Sonny choose Carly over Brenda. In return, Brenda choose herself and her child. Now they must set aside some of the hurt and communicate with one another and allow the water to flow and the bridge to be rebuilt. Luckily this is a tv show and that bridge is very likely to be rebuilt after a few days or so of true angst.

Real life is so different when trust is broken. In so may cases it can’t be repaired. Thank goodness this is tv and a soap opera. I can suspend belief for a bit and watch my S&B do their dance, heal the hurt and build something new, stronger and better between them.

We have so much hope that Vanessa/Brenda will be back. We project into the future and get excited very easily. We get somewhat past our trust issue with GH in hopes for a better outcome. We get set up quite a bit when it comes to a S&B happy ending. But, because we believe we are willing to give them another shot at getting the story right.

Let’s all hope for Brenda to come home, pray that Vanessa is healing & feeling better, the writing gets better and they respect the true history of the show.

TTFN xoxo~Ro